6 months and double digits

ok so I am now at the 6 month mark and yesterday I had my dr. appt. I have now officially gained a total of 11 lbs. I am gaining to be around a lb a week now and so that is not too bad and right about what they suggest. The dr. did say that I am small for 6 months though compared to others but some people just hold it in tighter than others she said. So anyway the newest symptom of my pregnancy is now NIGHTMARES! I have VIVID HORRIBLE AWEFUL nightmares every night and around like 5 of them a night. I wake up crying all the time. They are not good. My family is always dying around me! And for some reason lil Boots (bebe) always get tortured or dies in them. And Mandrae seems to die a lot too. So I find myself waking up a lot not only to pee but to check to make sure my babies are still alive. The other day I had a dream that I was at six flags with my cousin Rachel (not sure why?) and she wanted to ride the rides and so I felt obligated to ride them and I kinda forgot I was preg and that it was a big deal and so I rode them. I would get to the top of the roller coaster and just before the coaster was about to dive down 500 ft I would remember I was preg and start screaming. I could feel my stomach leave my body and just felt like I killed Anissa. It was horrible and the worst part is that it didn’t stop w one ride. I rode prolly 10 rides that day and everytime I forgot I was preg and just kept doing it and screaming and I woke up convinced that I killed Anissa and that this dream was REAL! It 2 days for me to convince myself that I didn’t really go to Six Flags. Then last night I was riding a horse and some girl was chasing me and the horse and bebe and she was beating us. She wanted to kill us and we didn’t know why. The horse was tired and wouldn’t barely move and she would catch us and torture the horse and torture bebe! I would beat her up but was too scared to kill her bc I didn’t want to be mean and so I spent the whole night running from her but it was so real! And I know it sounds dumb but it felt like it was really happening and even when I would wake up 12 times a nite to pee I would still go back to bed w the same dream continuing and I would open my eyes and pray for a new topic to dream about but it was always something aweful. I think the worst one though was when I was stuck in a tornado that kept coming back and everytime it came back in the same nite it would kill someone in my family. My family was all w me and dying left and right. Even lil Parker was there. And it was come and then leave and come right back for someone else til we were all gone and there was no where to hide from it. It had eyes and knew where u were. It was horrible. Right before it killed me I woke up and wanted to throw up. O goodness – help me!!
On top of that the dr told me not to sleep on my back bc it can cut off the blood supply to the baby and that is the ONLY way that I can get comfortable at nite. I cannot sleep on my side to save my life! So I wake up on my back scared the baby isn’t ok. Plus she kicks really hard every time I get on my back. It scares me. Maybe she is struggling or something. Well anyway I am going to prop myself up tonite and sleep on my back at an angle like I am kinda sitting up and that should solve all my probs. I hope!
This preg thing is no joke!!!