"Can we please have a baby?"

Ok so lately I have been bugging my husband over and over for a little baby. He is not ready and wants to have like one million dollars in the bank before we do that and our house and cars and student loans all paid off. Well by then I will probably be dead or in a retirement home so that didnt sit too well with me. Plus I just turned 25 and am already too old and wanted to have a baby when I was 22. So anyway I was all over Mandrae about having a baby. I started to pray about it and ask God to somehow to make me have a baby through my birth control bc I dont believe in tricking him by not taking birth control and not telling him. That is just wrong, although I had thought about it alot. :) So anyway one day I was praying in church about it bc my best friend had a baby and my sister had a baby and I was just baby crazy by then. God started to convict me that I should not be taking birth control and that we were living in total faith and trust in every other area of our life for Christ except this one. We were going to decide when was best for us to have a baby. I talked to Mandrae one night about that and told him if we are going to dedicate our life to Christ in total faith we had to do it in all areas, including when we have a baby. Only God can know when we are physically, emotionally and mentally ready to have a baby. So that night I went off birth control. Now that I think about it, when you are living a holy and pleasing life in total surrender to God then God will only give you what is best for your life and why would I ever decide on my own when is the best time to have a child? That is crazy. I trusted God to give me a husband, I trusted him to find me a house, I trusted him with a job, and I trust him with my life and so why would I not trust Him with our children? So we are now in total surrender to Gods timing on when we will have a little one. Yes, I am anxious and gittery to have a lil one but God knows best and when He does bless us with one, it will be the most perfect timing. God is always good and has filled me with so much joy and I cant wait to see what He has in store for me next. :)